Recently, I noticed my strong sexual drive and desire. I always feel the hunger for sexual pleasure more than I ordinarily felt before. My friend advised me to seek Medical attention and I did not hesitate so I consulted a Psychiatrist.
The doctor told me that I am showing signs of Hypersexual Disorder... Where in my opinion, very disgusting to hear.
I've been dating a guy from "The College that never sleeps, Architecture" for 5 months, but nothing more than kissing happened to us. I was afraid to tell him that I already fucked his best friend, his cousin, his blockmate and his roommate. I felt dirty and unworthy of his love so I told him about everything he don't know last night. I told him that I gave blowjobs to several random guy in those five months, I fucked a few as well. I slept with people around him and even went back to my exes and did it again with them. I told him everything, especially the dirty things that I did on the previous month where I've been with my dirtiest and wildest moments that he never knew I was.
He cried while he heard the confession of (probably) the most deceitful woman that he might have dated. He asked me a lot of things that I could not answer. I was very ashamed of my self.
But while I kept on talking, he interrupted me and asked me, "Why you never did it with me? Is it because I know less and I am still a virgin?" The only question that struck me the most and the only question that I answered, "It's because I don't want you to get filthy like me... because you're the guy that I loved the most."
He kept on crying as he hugged me tight. He kissed my forehead and whispered sorry. I asked him "Why are you the one saying sorry?" "Because I did worse" he said. "What do you mean worse?" I asked. Then his answer almost killed me. It brought me to fastest blood pressure that my circulatory system will ever experience. He replied...
"Because I became unfaithful too, I slept with you Best friend and now I'm falling in love with her"
Then the last thing I remember is I bit my tongue hard and I fainted right after.
I woke up this morning in a hospital bed. I am thankful I was discharged this afternoon which enabled me to share my rough situation at the very moment that you are reading this. The doctor said I had hypertension and my system shut down. I fabricated a story to make my parents (who just separated last January, a month after my sister died) believe that everything is fine. I turned off my phone for the whole day. I don't want to talk to him neither to my friend. I am filled with confusion and sorrow. I can no longer endure the pain. I was energized by anger for the whole day. I feel unloved by God for all of these misfortunes.
Now I would like to ask for your advice, I know this problem is hard to fix, but what should I do? What should I do? Please help me... you might save a life if you will.
- Helpless woman
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