Ang sakit kasi nakatingin siya ng maigi sa mga mata ko, hinawakan ako sa kamay then

I was crying so hard a week ago after my boyfriend broke up with me. It is my fault for being too clingy and paranoid. So my friend (a guy -- alam na) was there to comfort me. Tbh, it was more of me bothering him in the middle of the night asking things about how guys think and whatnot.

Then I gave him a blowjob.

Bilis no? He never really asked me nor did we plan on anything. It never struck me that I wanted him as a fubu, but I just wanted to take my mind off of things. Plus, I get that notion that when I give others pleasure, I'm being loved and accepted. Typical needy girl sob story.

It all happened one night sa condo sa may Dapitan. That's where I was staying. So ayun, mukmok lang ako ng mukmok, naiiyak sa isang tabi. Then I would call my friend for comfort. It's not like I like him enough to be romantically involved with him. Trip ko lang ng makakausap na trust worthy. In a way, user ako.

But he was so patient with me, tahimik lang. Ewan ko nga kung ano iniisip. I was telling him how my boyfriend talked to me on top of the main building (Tiger uni). He held my hand and said that love wasn't enough.

Ang sakit kasi nakatingin siya ng maigi sa mga mata ko, hinawakan ako sa kamay then sabi ng boyfriend ko (ex na pala):

\"I'm not sure if I love you the same way as you love me. Mika (not my name), you always know nandito ako para sa'yo diba? We both need to mature, and I don't think you will mature being with me. Kailangan na ata natin... tapusin.\"

Putangina talaga, lumuluha ako habang tinatype ko ito. Eh exam week pa naman tapos wasak talaga. Ito namang si guy friend ang unang nakapansin, tapos he asked me bakit daw ang asim ng mukha ko. Biglang naiyak ako. For days on end umiiyak ako, feeling ko nga nagsasawa si friend ko kasi puro ex ko kwento ko.

Gustong gusto ko uminom, kaso allergic ako eh. Sad no?

So tambay tamaby na lang kami sa condo ko, when he touched my shoulder... ewan ko ba kung anong pumasok sa akin, I pinned him down on my bed. Pumiglas nga ng konti, pero halos isubo ko na ang mga labi niya. I was nibbling his lips, but he still tried to get up. Oo, medyo rapist ang dating ko, pero super... libog ko ata?

I touched his crotch and opened his pants. At that moment, natigilan na siya at natulala na parang \"ano to? is this real life?!\" I pulled down his brief tapos nakita ko ang tulog na junior niya. Let's just say bitesize, kaya na-conscious. Pero dinilaan ko sa ulo. Pinasok ko ng buo sa bibig ko at nabasa talaga ng laway ko. I was twirling my tongue, until si junior lumaki.

Bumukaka na siya, signaling that he liked what I was doing, habang tuloy tuloy na lumaki si junior. He was trying not to moan as I was looking up, pero kinakagat na niya labi niya talaga. Kulang na lang dumugo lips niya. Then noong nagsabi na siya na lalabasan na siya, di ko pinansin.

TUloy tuloy kong sinisipsip talaga, ewan.. just to forget? or maybe kasi slutty lang talaga ako. But in any case, I heard him breathing so hard at medyo nag-thrust na ng konti at hinawakan ako sa ulo. Binaon niyang mabuti sa lalamunan ko ang titi niya. Until naramdaman ko na lang yung mainit niyang katas. Napuno yung lalamunan ko. Tibok ng tibok si junior niya, at in fairness, it felt good.

Afterwards, noong nag ayos na kami sabi niya sa akin na ako daw ang first niya. I didn't really care. Mahal ko pa rin ex ko ng sobra, I loved him and in order to forget, ginusto ko na wasakin sarili ko kasi in all honesty, feeling ko basura ako eh. "

- SadWhore